Safe

Trains are fun to ride. That's why I use a train to ride everywhere I go now. I just don't trust anything else to get me where I'm going. I feel safe inside a train. I feel protected.
A man walks into my car, but he just seems to ignore me. They all seem to. Once you get scarred, people don't like to acknowledge you're there anymore. Don't like to look at you, or even worse, have the risk of talking to you. But I don't mind. I prefer to be alone. People are just made up of lies and hate and other things.
I open up my suitcase, and push aside some of the clothes. Underneath them, in the corner, is my old dolly. My mother would tell me I'm too old for dollies, but she can't now. Dolly survived, but mother didn't. That was four years ago, and that's why I like trains. There is only one. One train. There aren't a bunch of different tracks and trains all twisting and turning about each other. There's no random train that can come flying out into another train. The train moves itself, so I trust it. It has a plan. I don't trust cars, or planes, or boats anymore, because they have no path. The people make the path.
I move my thumb along my doll's face, or what's left of its singed and scarred form. She made it out, made it out when two path's crossed because there was no set order. I remember her hair, how beautiful it used to be, but all of it's gone now. I put her under my arm, curling up in the corner of my seat, just leaning my face down on the good side, just staring out the window at the hills as they loll by.
Clocks move faster now, but no matter how fast they move, they seem too slow. I wish this ride would last forever and ever, for only here do I feel alive. In this little box, looking out the window. Only here I can breathe....only here I can sit in peace...only here does everything feel real. That's it's right, and that there's something more. And I shut my eyes every time, hoping I never hear the sound of the wheels screeching, of the brakes going off. Hoping I don't feel everything go still and frozen, dying before my feet.
I'd like to stay here forever...for only here I feel safe.
The breaks sound.